"Wow am I feeling this one!" This year for me has come in like an avalanche and boy am I feeling it these days.I spent the last few months processing the events that have happened in these recent months,some of them very traumatic and also the last 3 years in which was the same and in this time trying to sort out what was going on feeling into things and for a time nothing was really working the way I had hoped so I made a conscious choice to move into the energetic space of the medicine wheel to heal and reveal what shadow work I need to focus on to heal and release. Scorpio is a water sign and water deals with all things emotion.Being a Scorpio myself and one who is tuned into the moon and feeling the push and pull of energy I was a little emotional coming into this moon and fell into bouts of depression and self doubt.I knew it was time to do some soul searching and introspection. On the Morning of May 13 after another whirlwind week I stood outside pondering what to do with my herd this year and how to move fence lines and I got a picture in my mind of my Stallions out with the herd.One family ,One herd "Oneness" and I was uncertain and feeling resistance to it in some small way.I had a lot invested into getting the breeding program back up with my 2 Stallions and was not thinking of gelding them at all.They are well behaved as Stallions. I saw this picture in my mind again and could not stop thinking about it. That same morning a friend came by for coffee with a guest and we spent some time going out to see the horses. I was reluctant to let people here at this time because I was in a more vulnerable state but decided to trust it and so we visited the horses and I just said out loud I was thinking of gelding my stallions in a couple years so as we talked about it I began to feel into that thread...The next day on the 15 I felt the presence of my Stallion Artistry who has passed to the realms of Spirit and his son Spirit who has recently left us.The 15 of May was also Artistry's birthday. I was paying attention now ,tonight the Scorpio full moon ..the moon has weaved her magic into me transforming a lot of shadow and ancestral healing from darkness into light.I am letting a good thing die to allow for something more aligned to who I have now become come in for me. I have had a number of guides and signs along this path and there is no coincidences..3 visits from a Raven,one from our pet Crow Balthazar and number and pattern sequences,synchronicities and mental "Knowings"and more.When our colt Spirit suddenly was injured in a terrible accident only weeks ago and we had to put him down I pulled a card that told me to follow the tracks of Spirit..That message was loud and clear as Spirits full name is Silver Mist Spirit Tracks. He has been present in all of this and I feel as though he brought closure to a journey I have been on for a very long time and also opened door to something new. I was also shown by Echo and Dandy members of their herd before they joined us and reminded of parts of myself I had forgotten for a while ,reminded me what is important. I have learned from my herd what it really means to be connected to ones self,to the earth and to others around us ,how to walk in beauty and heal myself. We have experienced life together as I have had foals nearly born into my arms and enjoyed a close and personal relationship to them and we have shared the pain and suffering of death.As horses have died in my arms also.We have grieved together and healed together.Like all family things ebb and flow and relationships are always shifting.In all of this as I felt into this thread ..one of a million possibilities for us it felt right to me and for the first time in months I felt a lightness and peace. I have now decided to breed 4 more foals for us and then to geld my stallions reinventing my farm to something new yet again.I was a bit sad at first but now look forward to the new chapters I will write for us all next in co creation with the herd,My family the farm and myself. I feel a sort of Magic in the air and though nothing has changed at all externally as of yet ,everything internally has changed for me my herd has changed the shape of me and I will now recreate things to move more energy into the path of healing with Riding the Spiral Path and the Silver Mist Morgans that will accompany me on the outward Spiral of this creation. I wanted to include the story of the story of Christopher Wren, a great English architect as it feels relevant today and reminds me every step counts as I build my own dreams. One day he walked unrecognized among the men who were at work upon the building of St. Paul's cathedral in London which he had designed. "What are you doing?" he inquired of one of the workmen, and the man replied, "I am cutting a piece of stone." As he went on he put the same question to another man, and the man replied, "I am earning five shillings twopence a day." And to a third man he addressed the same inquiry and the man answered, "I am helping Sir Christopher Wren build a beautiful cathedral." That man had vision. He could see beyond the cutting of the stone, beyond the earning of his daily wage, to the creation of a great work—the building of a cathedral. What will you allow to heal within yourself during this moons energy ? Where can you let the dead leaves fall in your life,What has served its purpose as it was for someone you used to be?
What stones will you lay in the foundation of the Cathedral you build?
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